Sam Zhang. Chinese. High School Senior.
Swimmer. Artist. Musician.
"To unsee what has been seen. To undo what has been done. To unknow what is known. What a beautifully tragic idea."
I’ve been eating crap lately. Not good. Sigh.
I came home and slept for HOURS
yeah i got home at 9:30 cause of the orchestra concert. So no sleep yet for me :P
The Last
Blood Drive: On the surface, the blood drive went pretty well. Got there at 6am, left at around 4pm, ended up raising 131 units of blood, which meant that we raised 570 units of blood for the entire year, which is really impressive. But, there were just so many underlying problems. I kind of don’t want to dish everything out here, but I’m just worried for next year and kind of appalled with how much b*tchiness I needed to pull out today. But yeah, thanks for everyone who donated today and who left the canteen when I told you to. All the good people made the day seem so much smoother and is probably why I don’t actually feel super stressed or upset right now. So thanks for that :)
Concert: I screwed up. Quite badly. I don’t think it was my fault, but doesn’t change the fact that I screwed up. And I didn’t get to socialize with orchestra friends cause I was too busy going on Facebook and texting people about Red Cross stuff. Technology ruins everything.
I don’t know. I think it’s kind of sad that my last blood drive and my last orchestra concert weren’t totally perfect and happy ending-like. But I guess that’s what my entire year has been like, so I’m not totally upset or surprised. But yeah. I think there’s this underlying sense of panic that has been haunting me this entire week. One, so much projects and crap to do. I didn’t study for my Physics test today nor did I do my math homework, so I’m hoping that the same thing doesn’t happen next week or the week after that. Two, I only have one full week of school yet and I don’t think I’m ready/will have enough time to say all my goodbyes. Three, I have no plans for the summer and now I’m afraid that I’m going to end up doing nothing, which would be horrible.
So yeah. To end on a positive note, I’m going to miss my Red Cross buddies. And my orchestra friends that despite my being old and how much I ditched orchestra at the end, still say hi to me and don’t hate my guts for yelling at them at the beginning of the year.
